Trying Some New Things

I've been doing some thinking and have decided to try some new things and some things I just haven't done in forever and a day.  The two new things are:

a.) a daily to-do list that I check off when I'm done with each thing
b.) doing daily stretching exercises (weirdly enough I've never done this)

and for the not so new things:
c.) gonna start doing yoga again (at least two-three times a week)
d.) taking a walk (two-three times a week)

I've kinda become this sedentary person who doesn't move around as much as I used to.  Part of it is due to depression and lack of motivation, the other part is due to how much pain moving causes my joints and back.  It's frustrating, but I'm gonna try even harder to do these above things and *keeping my fingers crossed* that this will help.  At least I won't be so horribly out of shape.  Eventually I wanna get back to lifting weights (I never lifted anything over 10 lbs or anything) again to tone up my arms, plus it really makes carrying in groceries a breeze cause you can lift even more bags at once.  Lol. 

Well, I think that just about wraps things up.  Do you do yoga?  If so, what are your favorite poses?

Grief & Depression

Grief and depression go hand in hand, for me anyways.  I've never been very good with death, but who is really?  I've been dealing with a lot of both things.  I started this post thinking I'd talk about it, but now that I'm actually writing this post...I'm not so sure.  I just got the tears dried up for the moment and I'm so afraid that the flood gate will open hardcore again if I do. 

I just reread that paragraph and what stands out is that last sentence and the presence of fear.  Fear is a powerful thing.  Fear can cause us to block out memories, push memories and feelings further back into ourselves so that we don't deal with them.  I don't know what else to say, so that's all I've got for right now.